When told I was fit for work by the DWP in the United Kingdom, I made the decision to become self employed, knowing from past experience that I begin to become very ill when working for other people. This past year and a half has seen me be my own boss, and work myself to a stupor. I am technically no better than the bosses I'd had before! Having been a source of inspiration, care, compassion, and fun for many people all over the world, I have been truly honoured to have been able to play a role in the promotion of art and culture from a British/Western perspective, and also from my own perspective. I hope to have been able to merge the two ideals together well enough to show that from where I stand, there is a love for good quality relationships for anyone who is able to open their heart just a little and let others in.
Taking a business approach to fund my work has been a really interesting journey. Having established new wisdom and an appreciation for the world of marketing, networking, and profiteering, it has become very apparent that there are two distinct variations of business dealings. There is the honest service, and then there is the dishonest service. The actual workings of how social media affects others are little known, or at least little taught. Getting as far as "blue is unlucky in China but lucky in India" was as far as we got really, and that's why I made my sites green, black, and purple. I've a bit of a goth streak and they'll always be good colours for me.
The world has a lot to learn about how social media can affect people from different cultures. Empathic responsibility doesn't always have the same language in differing parts of the planet. We are all slightly different in how we choose to interpret the symbols and inspirations that flow from the sea of faces and names who all contribute to the Facebooksphere. I know that my contributions have been wise enough and from the heart enough to have been a positive experience for all involved. Of course we are all human and all of us are prone to momentary wrong choices, but I am very proud of what I have been able to achieve for myself in the way of learning a deeper sense of responsibility than I had before, by learning from my mistakes as well as helping others to see theirs.
I had always liked to think of my recent experience as a sort of 'digital tour', in which I showed as many people as were willing to watch, what I can do as a poetic artist. With poetry, however, the metaphor and symbolism involved will no doubt be interpreted in any number of ways by the audience. No matter how I am feeling or what I am thinking, others will end up with their own ideas. This is a really good thing, as in we find out how we feel about various concepts according to the perspectives offered by the inspirations and insinuations put forward by a piece of writing. Always considering myself to be one of the inspiring sort and not the insinuating sort, this is where my mind became stuck as toward the world of business.
I learned during the advanced courses that in business we have to compete and over step, and do one better. Business is a game of comparisons and competition. For me as a peaceful and non—money orientated person, I found myself struggling immensely with the continuation of that line of thinking. Learning the ropes was a good move, I know I can sail that ship if I have to, but recently it has been over stretching my reach in order to achieve the goals set out by this mindset - at a pace far quicker than my experience could cope with.
Making friends in the art world and then doing business with them on the side just didn't feel right to me, when I discovered that in order to do so I would need to change my outlook on these people from friends to competitors. I don't like losing friends and we can't be bringing each other down or building friendships that don't last either. Knowing I have many good and understanding friends, and a few fans too, I have made a decision to withdraw from my 'digital tour' in the knowledge that I have a great artistic talent that can be a source of enjoyment for many people, then use that wisdom to slow down a bit, consider my skills, and craft a new direction for myself that allows me to get a bit back more to my roots.
I want to thank everyone so far who has been an integral part of my journey into the professional art world. It is amazing, to say the least. Buying my work from "The Artist" section in the menu all helps me to continue, as does using the adverts in this website. You're all greatly appreciated as this continues to make my work possible. Thank you.