I chose a self-employment route because I can have difficulty with mental health. Depression and anxiety are funny things and can manifest in awkward ways. I also have a vivid imagination that often runs away with itself, which the doctors call psychosis. I'm not mad, just a bit eccentric and prone to delusion. I think we all are to some extent.
Part of being in control of my life means taking care of my mental health, and for me the application of pressure causes an imbalance of stress. It is as if there is part of me that is raw and sensitive, and any time it gets pressed it complains. It can make my life really hard, and yes it is all in my head, but no, it doesn't mean it's not real. To me, the feelings and sensations that come alongside the delusional and depressive episodes are very real. Imagine if you won a first prize, imagine your happiness. That would be real happiness, and for mental health problems it feels like these extraordinary situations but often in reverse.
So when I set myself targets, I remember that it's just a template. I feel like I let myself down sometimes, when I don't make an effort, so I try everyday. Trying doesn't always mean succeeding however, and although I may get a few good ideas or a lead for an article, I have to actually see it all through. There's the research side of work that goes on behind the scenes. I'm forever researching, and also learning how to apply it more in my writing. The internet loves links.
Being a person who has to juggle mental health with everything else, I know the importance of not feeling guilty about not matching up to regular expectations. We do our bes and maybe we fall sort from time to time but the energy required to stay focussed and able, to stay emotionally balanced, can sometimes be a job all on its own. I get that, and want to communicate the importance of just doing what you can.