Sometimes things don't have warning when they really should. Things like soap operas, comedy, and dramatisations often have content that triggers intense unwanted emotions for me. With soap opera, its generally arguments, judgements in which people call each other names, and discuss other people and why they're not good. I'm given comparisons to myself with other men. I just feel assaulted by a polygon of reasons to feel rubbish about myself. With comedy, the comedian often laughs at people in cruel and horrible ways, they pick on members of the audience which makes me angry, and the audience seem to be so intimidated by the insults and bullying that they sheepishly laugh at themselves in a self humiliating acceptance of the abuse. It makes me so sad to see. With dramatisations, it's simply the plot lines and the story that disturbs me, the things people do to each other and the way they treat each other really turns my stomach.
And what I fear the most is that these subhuman behaviours are replicated in real life because a lot of people seem to enjoy these shows. It makes me fearful to go outside sometimes, and if I am unlucky enough to catch something horrible, like in a film or something late at night, then it can keep me awake all night. Not the memory, not the story, but the feeling it put into me. Next time you hear the T.V warn you about the content, remember that for some people, it's needed. I'm one of them. I'm actually proud to not be desensitised to what I consider a sick and twisted version of reality, or the perhaps even sicker notion of finding pleasure in watching the suffering of others.